Being a girl born to religious Muslim parents, my whole life has been chalked out for me, I'm to get married, have kids, be a great Muslim daughter, wife, mother and any other role someone else wants me to play. That's basically how it us for us girls, we're not allowed to choose for ourselves, live for ourselves.
At 17, I decided I want to change that.
I turned 17 today, 9th March 2011. I've been dreaming of having a life of my own, studying what I want, living how I want, marrying someone I want to, if at all I do and not someone my parents pick for me. I've had dreams- dreams to be independent and be in charge of my life, not do what other people decide for me. I want to be able to make choices for myself, be it what I wear or what I study or whom I see or what religion I want to follow.
When my mother learnt I was an atheist, that I denied her beloved god and his prophet, denied everything she taught me about her perfect religion, the one and only accepted by god almighty, she threatened to kill me. I've been pretending ever since. I have so much to say, so much that I think about and I've been keeping it to myself until now.
Why am I blogging?
I don't really know. I guess there is a lot I want to discuss, a lot I want to share and a lot I want to express.
I try to be the normal religious Muslim kid I used to be. I wear the hijab, I pray, fast and greet every Muslim I know with a smile and a salaam. But I don't want to do it anymore. It disgusts me, being a part, or even pretending to be, of the most vile cult you would come across in my opinion.
I'm going to change that, I know I will, I just don't know how.
At 17, I decided I want to change that.
I turned 17 today, 9th March 2011. I've been dreaming of having a life of my own, studying what I want, living how I want, marrying someone I want to, if at all I do and not someone my parents pick for me. I've had dreams- dreams to be independent and be in charge of my life, not do what other people decide for me. I want to be able to make choices for myself, be it what I wear or what I study or whom I see or what religion I want to follow.
When my mother learnt I was an atheist, that I denied her beloved god and his prophet, denied everything she taught me about her perfect religion, the one and only accepted by god almighty, she threatened to kill me. I've been pretending ever since. I have so much to say, so much that I think about and I've been keeping it to myself until now.
Why am I blogging?
I don't really know. I guess there is a lot I want to discuss, a lot I want to share and a lot I want to express.
I try to be the normal religious Muslim kid I used to be. I wear the hijab, I pray, fast and greet every Muslim I know with a smile and a salaam. But I don't want to do it anymore. It disgusts me, being a part, or even pretending to be, of the most vile cult you would come across in my opinion.
I'm going to change that, I know I will, I just don't know how.
Regards
hey i really liked ur content see der are a lot of gals suffring from dis but what we do in the end of the day is just bolgging our probs just wanted u to do somethin abt it all the best....u get for urself "the freedom to choose"
ReplyDeleteI know I will, I have to figure out how
ReplyDeleteHey <3
ReplyDeleteI can't wait till you're out of there. Stay strong and keep a low profile irl until you're free and then do whatever.
Happy b-day btw, hopefully next year it'll be in Europe!
Much love <3
Hey Sara <3
ReplyDeleteI'm looking forward to next year :) Love to you too <3
Hello
ReplyDeleteI read your post in CEMB. That is how I am here. If I have one piece of advice for a brave girl like you, do not (ever) reveal your geographic location.
I do not know how much you know about computers, but a persistent pervert can and will be able to locate you even if you have not revealed your location.
So do not make it easier by giving out your location location.
Thanks, I corrected that
ReplyDeleteYou are more wise and brave at 17 than most people will ever be in an entire lifetime. Also, you are extremely smart to understand that your safety is paramount, so never feel as though you are selling yourself out by pretending. The most important thing is that you survive so your words can be heard by, and hopefully inspire, others.
ReplyDeleteI hope one day you are able to live freely and make all the choices you want to make.
Thank you :)
ReplyDeleteI hope so too
I just came across your blog by following a link from another and just wanted to say bravo to you for using your mind versus blind following since you were indoctrinated as a child. Take care of yourself and stay safe.
ReplyDeleteOhhh another ex Muslim :) Hello!
ReplyDeleteI'm gonna go through your blog, how I love ex Muslimahs :)
Cheers xx
Hello "Freedom to Choose". I came across your blog following a link from WikiIslam.net, and am truly amazed at your mind, that one could be so self-realized and incisively questioning, especially in one so young. Never stop striving and questioning! Keep up the good fight! You will go far in life.
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